Terry,
This post just filled in a lot of holes for me. Prior to becoming a JW, I had a very spiritual nature...this was lost and replaced by what I now recognize a pseudo-intellectualisation of religion/faith/belief. (I don't know if that makes any sense...) One of the things that I missed and felt a lack of was a feeling of connection to God/Spirit in the "Truth." I secretly envied people that went to "church" and felt the love of God and the movement of Spirit. Even now, after years of slowly fading and not being at a meeting in over 3 years, I still haven't been able to reconnect with my spiritual nature...and I miss that. Still haven't figured out how to get that back...